Hate that I miss you
I hate that I miss you. You weren’t the man I needed, or thought you were. But part of me still misses you. It’s the part that remembers when you were the man I wanted. But you are no longer that man. I know I will move on. That I will be okay. That I will find someone worthy of my time and affection.
Maybe I already have. We’ll see how this new chapter of dating goes. He seems pretty great so far. Maybe he will be able to erase the hurt you caused. If not, I will erase it in time.
I don’t need a man in my life. I forgot that for a hot minute. That I am just fine without a man in my life. I am fine most days. I have moments that come in waves. Waves of anger, sadness, disappointment, loneliness…
I know I’m better off without you in my life. I know I learned from you several things. Like how I should and shouldn’t be treated. How it feels to feel safe in a relationship… even if it didn’t last. How one sided relationships never work. One sided relationships are just one person giving up but refusing to let the other person go. I learned how disrespectful people don’t deserve your time. Even if you are the only person that acknowledges the disrespect. I learned what I am and am not willing to include in my life.
So here’s me sending you light and love… hoping you find happiness in this life. Despite all that you have put me through I still wish you the best.