Finding Faith – NYR

Here’s to finding (my) faith and the journey to finding my lost self.

Tonight is Christmas Eve. It’s also the eve of a new beginning. I made a list of NYR (New Years resolutions) for 2019 year. While there are the simpler (or so they may seem) ones like setting up this blog to actually have reader and pay off my debts (student loans not counted).. the ones I need to meet are… for me much harder.

My remaining NYR include:

• Finding faith in GOD
• Let GO
• Finding peace

I specify finding faith in GOD because while I need to find faith in myself. . . I need GOD more so. I’m a lost soul and I need to repair this relationship we have. It’s broken and left in disarray it may never be able to be repaired. But I know that I can’t keep living like this so I’m hoping to find my faith and the purpose of my life beyond my current life choices.

I chose LET GO because I’m strung out by the past, and my past mistakes. Some even haunt me to this very day. But that’s not the point of learning from our past. We need to let go and look beyond the past to live in the present and prepare for the future. A future in Christ. But even more importantly than that a future FOR me.

Find peace. Two words and such a sigh of relief once found. I’ve watched as others have found their sigh. I’ve watched on, green with envy, while others live their lives. I want to LIVE my life like a person who is happy, happy to be alive and happy to be #livingmybestlife.

So for once my NYR do NOT include getting healthy, losing weight, or something else related towards fitness. I have simply – not necessarily given up, but restructured my list this year to allow my mind body and soul to heal in a different way. But I’m also hoping that by finding my inner peace and faith my body will heal enough to lose these pesky pounds. . .

Here’s to making my NYR and hoping i complete each and every single one. It may not be January first just yet… but I’m starting early.